Body Confidence.... The power of an image

Where do I start? 

I've never being a happy person within myself, never have I ever felt 'beautiful,happy of confident.' In all honesty I see myself as the 'fat and frumpy' friend, someone I loathe and detest and if I could swap places with one of my girls I would. That's the problem. I can't. I'm stuck in this body for LIFE. Whenever I like it or not theres no changing it, and I thought you've got to learn to love yourself and rock every curve you have. It's something I've had to do for my own sanity. I've suffered a lot over the years due to 10 years of bullying which hammered away at my mental health leading to other issues. Recovery from them issues have meant I'm a more positive person but to grow as a person I've  had to face up to my demons: confidence. A lack of confidence is something most people don't think I have on paper I don't fit the job, I'm outspoken, loud, smiley however on the inside my brain is saying 'sit up cause you'll look fat, change your outfit, contour more.' Confidence is something I long for I can dish it out very easily, friend in the dumps, I bet you I'm the one giving them confidence booster advice, yet somehow I can't listen to it myself? As of January 2016 I've made it my mission to love myself and give something back to myself. I've stay clear of negativity and girly arguments, I've kept myself to myself and worked on my self esteem. I've taken up my passion of running again and run once or twice a week to make my mind clear and fresh. I make it a weekly thing to have a bath bomb from lush in a bath and a facemask. I've made it my guilty pleasure to chill with a glass of coke or champagne if I'm feeling great with some junk food and rubbish T.V. I stick post it notes with positive notes around my room and inspirational quotes that will motivate me and keep my mind healthy. On that note check out KhloeK instagram for kick of good vibes. I no longer allow myself to feel 'fat' and I only wear clothes that make me happy. I no longer care for bad vibes and people's negativity and I'm focused and determined on myself to succeed. Yes I still have days where I feel fat but those days have significantly decreased just by lovin' myself a lil better and having a clearer mind. I'm not one to take photos of myself in a mirror but I recently took my first one and couldn't help but gaze at it for hours. I won't feel bad for being a size 10 just because society standards say it isn't 'skinny' enough. Who's with me to kicking society's standards?

Next time your feeling down take some time for yourself. You deserve it. You are more than critics comments. 

Anastasia Beverley Hills: Self Made palette

Firstly may I apologise for going missing and not being around schoolwork and exams got the better of me. Now I'm back! Carry on reading for a review of the Anastasia Beverley Hills palette


When this palette first came out I longed for it, I eagerly awaited in my room waiting to purchase to come back from prep (homework) to see it had sold out! Cue screams of disappointment and misery. I made the decision to purchase a MUR palette instead but when the youtube tutorials and blogposts hit that ping of disappointment inside me hit again. This month after waiting for it to appear on a selling site it did! I couldn't type the words can I purchase fast enough, 3 days later the palette was mine and I finally owned it. It's a decision I don't regret and has being one of my best purchases of 2015.

The array of colours is brilliant and they just melt into your skin making it a dream to work it. Recently I've being loving a grungy 90's look minus the lip. I love the whole dark smokyish lid and using an orange as a transition shade to make it 'grungy.' Alternatively you can go super glam and girly with the shimmery colours and the pink shade to make it a glam go to look. This is one of the many reasons I love this palette because it is so versatile and easy to work with. Inside the palette you get a free brush which is double ended and easy for the touch ups on the train, instead of fishing around for a makeup brush in your back. The packaging is a simple grey colour and doesn't take away from the beautiful colours inside. Overall I am in love with this palette and hope I go through to 2016 with it being a favourite of mine

Syrian refugee Crisis

Besides makeup and health and fashion I am really interested in politics. Politics interests me and I believe it is the key to change and peace in the world.  Without politics we wouldn't have freedom of speech and the freedom of movement in the UK. For that politics is something I love to learn about and discuss different peoples opinions on heated topics that effect everyone. A common mistake people make is saying politics doesn't effect them. That's the problem politics effect everyone and it's someone we should all be aware of and how it effects us.
Today's blog post is all about the Syrian refugee crisis
I was deeply moved after reading The Independent newspaper published a picture of a young boy face down in the seas of Turkey he had drowned. For me this really upset me and moved me that people couldn't love in their home country and embrace their culture because of terrorists. They are fleeing their homes and loved ones to make it to a safe country where they hope to find peace. Yet the UK will not take in more refugees which is shocking! Many countries such as Germany and Sweden are taking refugees in and giving them safe shelters. But more countries need to step in and help. We need the same encouragement as when the Jews had no safe homes. Innocent and helpless young children are paying the price for the wreckless and irresponsible decisions the Western governments (USA and UK) made to back terrorists groups in Afghanistan and supply them with weapons. You may ask yourself but that is Afghanistan the problem is in Syria. The problem has spread from Afghanistan to Syria. As people we need to help innocent children the same children who didn't choose to be born in Syria live in a safe place. I urge UK ciztens to dig deep and donate and sign a petition asking David Cameron to allow more refugees.

Please do whatever you can.
https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/105991 will get onto it now x

Make your own irresistible lipscrub

So recently I've being loving the lush lipscrub. I've hit the pan and with having many different appointments I just haven't had the time to go into town and have a lush splurge. I do love online shopping but sometimes I take it to far and one haul leads to a Mac haul. (Especially when they've just launched there new matte collection, which is just perfect!) anyway my lips are something that need a little tlc I'm not blessed with naturally smooth plump lips. I really should take more care of them. I tend to wear a lot of matte lipsticks so my lips dry out easily and then the lipstick doesn't look so good. The lush lipscrub takes away all the dead skin and leaves them looking as smooth as a baby's bottom. But I've being on the hunt for a good recipe for a handmade scrub for some time. So i took to google and after a quick search I went on a hunt into my kitchen and made my own.
To make your own lipstick you'll need a tumbler glass of tub some brown sugar and some honey. Take a generous amount of sugar and honey and mix until it's stiff and you just can't mix it anymore. Girls! Take note it's a good arm workout! Once done I left to set in the fridge and I simply take it out whenever I want it.

Stayed tuned for more posts.

Skin care routine

For years I have battled with a very oily t-zone. Summer time is a time of year I dread as my oil production increases and if not careful I tend to look sweaty and warm. Definitely not the look you should I'm aiming for! It's taken many trails of high end and drugstore skin cleansers to find a routine that works for my skin without months down the line failing and breaking out. Skincare to me is vital because I believe if you have good skincare your makeup will look effortless and will glide on. Recently this summer I've being loving the Avene Cleanance cleansing gel it is especially formulated for acne prone skin. It has cleared my skin up over 5 weeks and has also cleared my blemish marks. I use this twice a day. The next thing I have being loving is the garnier miscellar water which removes makeup without a fight. Another one from the garnier range which has revatlized my skin care is the garnier gentle toner. I've never being committed to a toner but recently it has helped my skin stop getting dry from acne creams. Finally I have being using the boots No7 day and night moisturisers which have helped rebalance my skin and helps to achieve a smooth surface before applying primer. To me skincare is important and since having comitted to loving my skin more this summer my skin has never being clearer meaning I can apply less makeup as my skin is becoming flawless with a natural healthy glow. Although I doubt I'll put down my benefit watts up highlighter anytime soon as the JLO glow is still in fashion.

Some links to the products I use http://m.boots.com/h5/cat_hub?path=%2Fen%2FAvene-Cleanance-Cleansing-Gel-200ml_1338914%2F&unCountry=uk#
http://m.boots.com/h5/cat_hub?path=%2Fen%2FGarnier-Skin-Naturals-Soft-Essentials-Softening-Toner-For-Dry-Skin-200ml_868684%2F&unCountry=ukhttp://m.boots.com/h5/cat_hub?path=%2Fen%2FGarnier-Skin-Naturals-Micellar-Cleansing-Water-Combination-Sensitive-Skin-400ml_1656090%2F&unCountry=uk
http://m.boots.com/h5/cat_hub?path=%2Fen%2FNo7-Beautiful-Skin-Day-Cream-for-Normal-Oily-Skin-SPF-15-50ml_1245028%2F&unCountry=uk
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